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I've been feeling very burned out since I came back from my two-week vacation, discouraging as that is.
The trip took a lot out of me, with all the walking and jet lag and all, but I should be fully recovered by now, and I apparently am not. The BF and I both had colds when we came back from Japan -- no, it wasn't SARS -- and I wonder if it's lingering.
Yeah, that's it. Must be that.
I've felt contstantly run down and fatigued. Two nights ago, I fell asleep in front of the TV while watching one of my favorite programs after work. I awoke, surprised, an hour later, the TV still on. I don't typically fall asleep watching TV, and I never fall asleep that fast. I've never had a hard time staying up until 4 a.m. Mostly, it's not even by choice but just my body clock. But lately, I've had to go straight to bed after work because I can barely keep my eyes open.
I nearly fell asleep at the wheel this morning on the way to rowing practice.
Mentally, I'm not much different. I haven't been sloppy, but I've been numb and apathetic to work.
I thought taking off two weeks would rejuvenate me, help to boost the negative attitude I often feel for my wheel-spinning career until my next week of vacation rolls around. The BF and I even commented before we left that eight days in an unfamiliar country was about as long as we'd probably be able to stand being away from home. It didn't help. If anything, exploring a fascinating country and connecting with my roots has made it harder for me to concentrate on my mundane tasks at work.
At any rate, I'm still strugging to get back into my daily routine. It's been much tougher than I expected it to be.
Current mood: Tired